So finally the day came to visit the psychiatrist. I had to go through the medical insurance in Peru which is way awful but that is the price to get free medicine. First I went and the doc didn't even show up and they moved our appointment. Then it seemed that she wasn't going to arrive but fortunately she did.

As far as our 1 to 1 conversation it was short. Mainly I just said I was having anxiety attacks in social settings, that I was more isolated than ever before and that my stuttering started at age 20 and I did not know why that happened. Also, lately I was stuttering way more and that is what was putting me down so much. Well she took notes and all but little feedback really. I told her about my rough moments and what I thought triggeredd the stuttering. I told her that I got anxious because of my stuttering but maybe my stuttering was the cause for my anxiety. At the end she gave my Prozac and Klonipin. I do have depression so I think this will help. Also klonopin helps with the anxiety but it makes me feel weird like "tipsy" which is kinda cool (hehehe).

This is as far as my medicine approach to my troubles. I know it is not all. I did something I have never done before. I called my dad and told him I was a stutterer and that it was ruining my life. I cried and opened up and he was kinda shocked because he did not know it affected me this much. In fact he said I did not stutter that much. I felt so good after telling him because I was alone in this situation with my wife and now my parents are on my side too. It was tough because it is not easy to say "I am a stuterer" but the fact is that I know they will help me a lot.

So, medicine and family openness is checked but there was one more important issue to deal with. Praying had become so difficult for me and my faith became so weak that I put God in the back seat. I am closer to Him than before and am able to pray again so it is good to feel his presence close again.

Results? Well, I am stuttering less, I don't know if it is the medicine, the family unity, or my new commitment to be a better spiritual person. I sure know I am not cured but I feel better and I think these 3 issues have really helped me. Thanks to all of those who sent me messages to my email or by comments. STUTTERERS RULE!!!!